Estelle is the first passenger up the ramp, calf-sueded and cashmered with colorful dashes that complement the dyed trim of her coat. Up close Miriam sees the fur is real, and sighs. It’s not as if they haven’t had this conversation. Estelle is practically a spectacle next to Miriam in her wool car coat, tan slacks and tan cardigan—an ensemble that could be tossed into a dustbin, should there be any need to dispose of evidence. Similarly non-descript replacements are in her overnight bag.
The sisters bump cheeks and quickly comment that the other is looking well. They turn down the vast concourse.
For a dozen yards, Estelle watches her sister in the periphery. Miriam has faded some, Estelle thinks, is less like herself, more like a widow.
Miriam can feel the deceptively soft gaze Estelle employs. She turns and they make real eye contact. “You hardly look the part, Estelle.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean you hardly look like a killer.” It comes out much louder than intended.
Estelle’s eyes swivel to the family of travelers just abreast—a couple with two beefy teens in varsity jackets with athletic patches on their sleeves that look like Oreos. She squeaks, “Well, neither do you, Miriam.”
As the family moves ahead, Estelle sees the patches are embroidered hockey pucks, and though they pass quickly out of earshot, she attempts small talk, pointing out the many shops and kiosks along the concourse. “Airports were never like this back when Roger and I were traveling. They’re like malls now, aren’t they?”
To Miriam, the airport seems identical to the one in Boston—the same Starbucks and Cinnabons situated on the same corners, so that she must concentrate to place herself in Minneapolis. As they walk, she fidgets with the bangles that had set off the metal detector at Logan and wrecked her nerves for the morning. She hesitantly tells Estelle about her run-in with security, “Do you think getting rid of these might be more prudent than risking more trouble on my return flight?”
Estelle picks up her sister’s wrist then drops it. “I’d toss them.”
Miriam sniffs. “You would.”
“You asked.”
The silver bangles are souvenirs from a trip to Mexico with Dennis, but Estelle wouldn’t know that. Rearranging them, Miriam notices a new liver spot on her wrist and frowns—they are definitely multiplying in spite of the expensive cream she’d ordered from an infomercial. The guaranteed two-week trial period has already passed twice. Suddenly ashamed for her brief flight of vanity, she shoves her hands in her pockets, deciding to keep the bangles and throw away the cream.
Estelle trawls for conversation, “Is that coat new?”
“No.” Miriam stops. “There’s nothing about me that’s new.”
“Well, you look fine, Miriam. Very nice.” The hairstyle could easily be fixed. “By the way, did you get my birthday present?”
“I did. Thank you very much.”
“Did you get the joke? The amount, I mean … a hundred for every year?”
“Of course I got it, it’s a lot of money, Estelle.”
Estelle crooks her arm through Miriam’s, “Well, my kid sister only turns seventy once!”
“I’m seventy-two. Since you started fudging your own age, you can’t keep anyone else’s straight.”
“Sheesh. Remind me to send you another two hundred, then.”
Miriam closes her eyes and shakes her head as Estelle starts humming her self-conscious hum. Kid sister. Miriam looks up at Estelle, whose skin is taut with procedures and peels, any worry lines buffed away. If Estelle worries at all it would be over the sorts of things other people only dream of worrying about. With her young face and lolli- pop voice, Estelle makes an unlikely elder to her and Penny, their in-between sister, the one they’ve come to Minnesota to see.
They will visit Penny. If it’s as bad as all that, if she’s doing that poorly, they will say their goodbyes. If things seemed stalled, and Penny really needs their help, Estelle and Miriam will fulfill the pillow pact and kill their sister.
Miriam whispers, “Maybe.”
“Pardon, Mir?”
“Nothing.” Penny could live for weeks yet. Months. Her sons seem to think so, anyway.
They move on, scanning open storefronts, making full stops to look at cleverly displayed bags of wild rice, plush loons, and novelty snacks. Estelle examines such items as if they are essentials, choosing packages of Gummy Mosquitoes and Viking bobbleheads for her grandsons, a flickering blue night-light shaped like a bug-zapper, and a pair of trout-shaped oven mitts for Francesca. A shop in the far periphery catches Miriam’s eye. “What time is it?”
Coming from opposite coasts, each is hours removed from the other’s time zone. Estelle pulls back a fur cuff to reveal her Omega. “Only 10:15!”
Miriam is out of the novelty store and charging toward another shop—one that sells sleep- number beds. She’s never seen such a store in an airport—in the window a mattress is sliced in half to show its innards slowly expanding and contracting, as if breathing. She watches for a few huffs and heads inside to another display, a fully made bed roped off against children or anyone else naturally inclined to lie down when tired. Miriam steps around the velvet swag to sit on the duvet. A lamp glows pinkly on a nightstand—she might be in someone’s bedroom.
Estelle appears with her packages and her shoulders slump, “Oh no. Miriam, really.”
“What? I need a bed.” She lifts the price tag and makes a tiny noise. “And I have all that birthday loot burning a hole in my pocket.” As she lowers down onto the pillows, a groan escapes her. Not bad. Squeezing her lids to feign sleep, she can hear Estelle breathing. Soon enough, pacing commences next to the bed. Miriam is just beginning to drift along to the rhythm when the footfalls stop. She opens one eye to Estelle staring down at her, very near. With a twinge Miriam realizes she is in the same position poor Penny will be in an hour or so: prone, trapped, and at the mercy of sisters, those who love but are under no obligation to like.
“I’m so tired, Estelle. I had a two-hour drive to Boston and two flights.” She pauses before adding, “Both in coach.”
When Estelle sits on the edge, Miriam shifts over, believing her sister might kiss her forehead. But she only clucks, “You should have said something, Goose, I would’ve upgraded you.”
Miriam rises to her elbows, suddenly fighting tears. “I really did not sleep a wink.”
“Of course you didn’t. I only got six hours myself.”
“I might not have the energy for this, you know.”
“Miriam, but you said …”
She knew what she said. That she possessed the required detachment to do the Kevorkian thing, if it came to that.
She’d actually had some practice over the autumn, albeit on a dozen easy victims. When the eaves of her house were invaded by the very squirrels she once fed, Miriam lured them with peanut butter into Havahart traps that she bought at a discount with her PETA membership card. In the beginning, she drove them to the next county and released them. But when the carpenter took her on a crawl of the attic and handed her the repair estimate, Miriam quit ferrying and filled a wheelbarrow with water. After lowering the traps in, she’d look away for the time it took, singing to drown out the bubbles of distress—usually something upbeat, like Sinatra or Bobby Darin. Longer than always is a long, long time.
Yes, Miriam could kill—squirrels, anyway.
“You do remember it don’t you? That night we promised?” Estelle is staring at her.
“The actual pact? No.”
Miriam sees a salesman circling, working up to either chase them off or begin his spiel. She sits up and quickly reaches for her purse. Pulling out a pocketbook she opens it with a snap. When the man nears, she presses a forefinger into the mattress, declaring, “I’ll take it.”
She hands over her credit card, and when he begins to open his mouth, Miriam shakes her head as if regretting he won’t be allowed to speak. He slowly backs away to get his forms and run her MasterCard through his machine.
Blow-up mattress—$1,979.00. She considers the look on Estelle’s face.
“Priceless.”
“What?”
“Never mind.”
“Miriam, stop doing that.”
“Doing what?”
“Mumbling things and then refusing to repeat them. It’s rude.”
“Sorry. Where were we? Do I remember the pact? Frankly, I don’t. I remember being at Naledi and all the strange weather that year … but one particular conversation?”
Estelle sighs. “Selective memory?”
“No need to snipe. I’m not backing out.”
“But you must remember something.”
“That it was the summer after Mama passed.”
“And precisely why we agreed to spare our own children that sort of awful death watch.”
One evening thirty years before, between one highball and the next, back when they could put it away, Penny draped herself in a rocker on the porch that smelled of ozone and mice and came up with the pillow pact.
Miriam tries to recall Penny’s words, tries to conjure her voice, but memories form stubbornly silent as old Super 8 movies. She can see Penny as she was—tan and boyish in her capri pants, one espadrille swinging loose from a toe as smoke from her Virginia Slims gave shape to her stories and dead-on imitations. Had Penny spoken the words of the pillow pact in her own voice? A born mimic, she seldom used her own.
Penny loved to do the cranky Czech who ran the resort, and the vacationers that arrived each Saturday, providing new material. That year there’d been a high-strung minister in number four whom Penny imitated in stuttering, irreverent sermons. And the couple from Georgia whose fisticuffs always ended in noisy lovemaking, the husband drawling, “Who’s your big bear? Who’s Sugar’s big bear?” The dog-crazy opera singer from Ontario whom Penny did not try to emulate, preferring to wag her bottom like one of the soprano’s dachshunds, yipping and howling the score of Der Fledermaus.
“Miriam, are you even listening?”
“Uh huh.”
What words and phrases Penny spoke Miriam cannot recall, but Estelle is unable to forget. Conversely, Estelle struggles to remember Penny’s face, but not one feature will surface, she cannot envision the mouth that formed those ineradicable words.
Estelle begins again, nearly word for word, her voice enough like Penny’s to be haunting. “What if one of us was struck by lightning, stunned into a vegetable? What if one of us catches something fatal?”
Miriam is thinking of Penny’s curls bouncing as she performed her Harpo act—the minute something physical needed doing around the cabins Penny would grow mute, teetering atop tables to change flypaper, leaping to tennis-racket bats, puffing air into swimming mattresses. Penny’s cheeks always went apricot in the sun and she never wore a stitch of makeup at Naledi. They called her Pretty Penny. To her many nephews she was Aunt Pretty and is called so still, when she’s decidedly not.
Miriam’s vivid screen of memory blurs as Estelle insists, “You remember her saying ‘I’d do the same for you. If two of us did it together, like a firing squad—if two are pressing the pillow or feeding the pills … neither can really be responsible. That’s not murder.’”
In the echo of Penny’s words, they turn to see the clerk, frozen in mid-step like a mime. Miriam motions him forward and takes the papers. She fills in an address form, signs the delivery order and folds away her receipt.
Once outside the shop, they roam to the moving walkways, glad to be carried along rather than rely on their legs. They falter some when approaching the ends, stepping off and on with trepidation, neither quite able to take the other’s elbow.
“It’s discombobulating.”
Miriam frowns. “Is that really a word?”
“I think so.” Estelle squints. “I’d been searching for a word for us … for today. There are names for such things you know—infanticide or matricide. But what about a sister? Is there such a word as siblicide?”
When Miriam doesn’t answer, Estelle looks up to discover they are gliding alongside a great span of windows, revealing her first glimpse of snow in years. It looks like plastic flakes swirling in a souvenir globe.
In the main terminal they sink down escalators and weave underground before rising back up. At the taxi queue, a digital sign loops the time and weather. As they mine their bags for scarves and gloves, Estelle shakes her head. “Five degrees! It’s too cold for jewelry.” She pulls gold clips from her ears and winces, “I’d be dying too, if I had to live here.”
Miriam secures her collar. “Is that your idea of humor?”
After they give the driver the address, Miriam closes the Plexiglas slide. They are out of sight of the airport before she rallies the courage to open the overnight bag on her lap, tipping it carefully to expose the white zippered bag within. To her horror, Estelle plucks it out and opens it. Three syringes roll onto her palm, along with one of the vials.
The liquid is a deep amber—the color of Penny’s stained fingertips. “Oh, my. This is how? I thought they would be pills. You mean we have to … ?”
“Inject Penny? Not directly, just her IV.”
Miriam gently takes the vial and syringes. “You’ve no idea how hard it was to get all this. I had to drive to Quebec.”
“No. I didn’t know. Goodness. I guess I thought there’d just be some plug to unplug if it comes to that. Some machine to switch off.”
“For God’s sake, Estelle.”
Estelle begins absently tracing circles on the glass. “Oh, Mir … I wish we could go back.”
“Back?” Miriam considers her sister’s far-off expression. “Oh. You mean summer.”
They both mean Naledi, where their parents first took them during the war, and where they returned every July, eventually with their own children in tow. They sometimes wondered what made them go back—the resort made no claims in its brochure other than being clean, which it was, freakishly. It was miles from Squaw Inlet, the nearest town, and the lake itself was so far north the swimming raft often drifted to Canada. It was also remote enough their husbands weren’t inclined to visit.
The summer of the pillow pact, the sisters had nine children between them, all boys but one, ranging in age from ten to twenty. Estelle’s Max was the eldest, on break after his first year at Berkeley and supposedly keeping an eye on the younger teens. But by then the boys didn’t pose many dangers to themselves—all could dog-paddle and make their own sandwiches, and two had Red Cross certificates. Miriam’s daughter Lilith had a driver’s license and could be trusted with a grocery list. For a full month, the sisters read fat paperbacks, boned up on their French by listening to the Ontario stations, and played bridge. They made occasional forays through cabin kitchens to put away mayonnaise or sweep sand, and tossed coins to see who would venture to the lodge basement to launder beach towels in the shuddering aqua Maytags. For a full month they were happily idle.
Sometime during cocktail hour—when supper either burnt or didn’t, depending on whose night it was—one of them would aim binoculars toward the dock or the beach for a headcount of Lilith and the boys. One thing about Naledi, there wasn’t much trouble to get into.
They learned differently only a few years ago, when Lilith, after her second stint of rehab at Hawthornden for dependence on codeine and Zinfandel, embarked on her twelve-step program with zeal, skewing Step Four to include others in her fearless moral inventory. She ratted out old digressions on behalf of cousins and brothers—revealing that all the boys had smoked copious amounts of pot and even hashish at Naledi. Max, in fact, had supplied his minor cousins with dime bags bought from a state employee who nurtured his crops among pine saplings in a DNR greenhouse.
Such revelations were a bit of a shock to the sisters, but it had been decades ago, and boys being boys … well. They were a good bunch overall, and all had earned the requisite diplomas, married wives who produced tolerable grandchildren and settled in acceptable neighborhoods of decent cities. The marijuana would have been water under the bridge, except for Max. Max, as expected, had progressed from golden boyhood to golden adulthood—dean’s list at law school, headhunted into a prestigious firm, and partnered by his thirty-fifth birthday. A few years later, Max nabbed a senate seat, where one of his first votes was against legalizing medicinal use of cannabis.
Like any politician, Max adroitly deflected attention from himself. Since stones were being thrown, he said, he had plenty on Lilith regarding those summers. He also suggested that Aunt Pretty was likely more angry that he’d run on the GOP ticket than over a little weed.
Penny became incensed. Max, foolish and spoiled and smart enough to know better, had been dealing—selling to his underage cousins and others at Naledi—the Saturday maids, the dock boy who pumped gas, God knew who else …
Estelle wouldn’t admit outright her son was a hypocrite, and Penny was unable to let it go. After Penny threatened to leak information to the press, the two stopped speaking.
Initially, Miriam was a neutral go-between, passing along pertinent news and family gossip between Estelle and Penny. But when Penny took ill, Miriam nearly scripted her phone call, smugly informing Estelle that one of the medications Penny most needed—the one that might help her keep food down during chemo—was difficult to procure and a crime to use, thanks, in part, to her son.
“And you know she has glaucoma too, on top of everything else? Have you any idea how that might be treated?”
“I’ve done my research, Miriam.”
At the hospital curb they split the cab fare to the nickel, tuck pocketbooks away and gather their things. The pavement is icy, and they balance while watching the taillights recede into the snow until the car is too far to call back. Estelle minces several yards to the salted safe zone and turns, “Come on, Mir.”
Remembering Lilith’s unsavory but apt phrase when faced with something difficult, Miriam faces the hospital entrance and straightens. Just cunt-up and do it.
The doors are centered by a statue of a martyred saint run through with spears. When Penny was told she had cancer, she chose St. Sebastian’s for its proximity to her sons and for the irony—Sebastian being the patron saint of dying people, diseased cattle, and enemies of religion.
“Perfect for an atheist, really,” Penny had joked to Miriam over the phone while making a doodle of an arrow. “Just shoot me.”
Once through the revolving doors, Estelle inhales hugely, as if she cannot get enough hospital air. She breezes though the gift shop to buy a large bouquet of lilies and, inexplicably, two Mylar balloons that say Happy Today. She hands one over, “Here. One from each of us.”
Miriam holds hers low, nearly tripping on it as she trails Estelle and all her swinging parcels into the elevator. As the door seals them in, Miriam tisks—a mirror-lined elevator? There is nowhere to look and not see a crowd of themselves.
“In a hospital, of all places … ”
Miriam maintains there are two kinds of people—the kind that will paint over a piece of tape rather than bother peeling it up, and those who do things properly, thoughtfully. Miriam makes such distinctions so regularly that her sons roll their eyes before she can finish no matter the topic. Kyle, her youngest and kindest, has observed that one’s defining traits tend to exacerbate with age—the nitpicker picks more nits, the self-absorbed become ultra-absorbent, and the mean become nasty.
She resents the suggestion. It’s not that she’s judgmental, it’s simply that there’s no reason not to take proper care with things, including oneself. The Surgeon General warned Penny on every pack, but did she listen? It’s difficult for Miriam not to be angry when she’s supposed to help ease the way. And Estelle hasn’t begun
to comprehend the seriousness of Penny’s illness or the finality of the pact. She’s brought fudge!
The elevator bell tings, and for an instant gravity lifts the weight from their heels and a fleeting lightness rises through them. They look quickly to the many reflections to see if the other has felt it, but just as suddenly they are set down again onto their bones and the doors chug open, sliding their images away.
The hall is a tunnel of pistachio tile. At a station at the far end they find a nurse chewing a pencil, engrossed in the daily Sudoku. When Estelle says Penny’s name, the nurse blinks and straightens. She turns her monitor so they can’t see and taps her mouse. “Right. Dr. Bell’s patient … Lancaster, P.”
“Penelope Lancaster,” Estelle says firmly.
“Yes.” The nurse comes out of the station. With an offer to find a vase, she takes the lilies from Estelle and leads them down another hall, remarking how the Minnesota weather can make traveling such a trial, as if knowing they’ve come from the airport.
They are left in a small waiting room. After shedding their coats and shaking their scarves, they pile their things in a corner. They sit at a small table to wait. Estelle watches the door a minute before dragging her shoulderbag close. She pulls out a gift bag that says Marlbey’s Teas, LTD. Inside is a pillow-shaped package wrapped in tissue.
“What’s that?”
Estelle lowers her voice, “Well, not quite what it says.” She peels layers of tissue to reveal a large zip-lock bag packed tight with a dried, green herb.
“That isn’t … Estelle, that’s not?” Miriam stifles a yelp and her eyes dart to the door.
“I should hope it is, considering what I paid.”
“You carried that on the plane?” The package weighs at least a pound.
“I could have mailed it, I suppose. But since Penny needs it now, and since I didn’t have any trouble flying from Negril with it … ”
“Negril? Jamaica?”
“Well, goodness, I wouldn’t know where to get such a thing in Palm Springs. I thought of Mexico, certainly closer, but God knows what sorts of things go on down there. I just decided to visit the Robertsons—you’ve met Kitty and Earl—at their winter place. Their driver, Eddie, was such a nice young man—had those deadlocks … ”
“Dreadlocks, you mean?”
“As I said. How they keep those clean. Anyway, Eddie took me to a special plantation where a woman gave me some lovely tea, very relaxing, and sold me this.” She rewraps and stows the package.
Miriam sucks her teeth. “Well.”
“Well.” Estelle leans back.
They look around, scanning the tank of lazy angelfish, the stack of Highlights magazines and the crocheted wall hanging shaped like a crucifix. One of the Happy Today balloons ticks against the wall just above a heat vent. Once they’ve taken everything in, each sister’s gaze settles on the other’s hands.
Estelle sees Miriam no longer wears her wedding ring. Since Denny’s passing, her sister seems to have become more austere. She wonders if Miriam isn’t a bit relieved, as widows so often are. Her hands make small static movements. Of the three, Miriam is the bustler, the doer—nothing if not practical, especially now, when it’s easier to do than to think. Her nails are trimmed and clean and bare of polish. There’s a tension in Miriam’s hands that matches the held-in quality of her face—skin over the knuckles has mottled with age spots, a sight that bothers Estelle more than it should. She makes a mental note that once back home she will send a jar of cream from that spa in Marin.
What is taking the nurse this long?
Her own fingers, weighted with platinum, thrum slowly over the tabletop.
Miriam watches Estelle’s fingers move. She’s always found diamonds gauche herself, but realizes now just how well they suit cool, elegant Stella. It’s been a long time since she was called that—ages since the boys stood on the mossy steps leading up to the cabins and shouted Stellaaaahhh in their best Marlon Brando voices. Estelle had pretended to hate that.
Stella. Miriam shakes her head. None of it—nothing she owns, none of the ease or luxury she’s so accustomed to could have made those last months with little Roger any easier. And Big Roger walking out so soon after, Estelle going it alone, just her and Max and that pile of blue chip stocks—a period Penny crassly referred to as Estelle’s abject prosperity. Miriam sighs, no wonder really, that Max had been so spoiled …
It seems an eternity, yet can be no more than a few minutes before the door opens. The nurse wordlessly ushers in a white-frocked woman and quickly backs out.
They stand.
“I’m Dr. Bell.”
They shake hands and peer at the small letters on the doctor’s nametag until she offers, “Melissa Bell, Oncology.”
She’s pretty, like Penny.
Once they sit, the doctor wastes no time, gives them each a pinched smile and says in a voice of practiced succor, “Your sister took her own life this morning.”
The air in the room sifts down to thicken over the table.
Dr. Bell takes three empty prescription bottles from her lab coat and places them on the formica. Two envelopes with their names written in Penny’s hand are eased from a folder and set before them. “I’m so sorry.”
Neither sister moves or speaks. After a full minute, the doctor presses a palm over each of their wrists, then rises. “I’ll be right outside, if you have any questions. Your nephews are waiting in the room, in case you’d like to view … ”
Both shake their heads and the doctor nods, edging away, “Of course. I’ll have the floor nurse tell them where to find you.”
The door bumps shut. Miriam and Estelle don’t acknowledge the pill bottles, or the envelopes, or each other. Their gazes drop again to hands, this time their own.
Estelle stares at the facet of a large ruby, Roger Junior’s birthstone. She spreads her hand flat. Well, that’s that. Ro-joe, Aunt Pretty’s coming to join you... She hadn’t thought before, but now is suddenly glad that Penny and little Roger are together—that her boy will no longer be alone. That Penny won’t be. Just as unexpectedly, the thing Estelle has most struggled for all day comes to her with more clarity and vividness than seem possible—Penny’s face, her girl-face, bolts into focus. A scene fills in around her little sister.
She and Miriam are cross-legged on the porch floor of cabin two. Penny is on her knees, laughing and pressing a raw hotdog through the mesh of the screen door. On the other side is Dandy, the resort’s old brown Lab, frantically lapping and scraping his teeth against the metal. Sunlight lashing from his tail flickers across Penny’s nose and chin. That face. Even the smells come back to Estelle; scents of rain, of mice and hotdogs. Her eyes close like shutters to seal the moment. How could I have forgotten that?
Across the table, Miriam is studying her thumbs. A shriek of familiar laughter pricks the cotton wool that has muffled any recall of Penny’s voice. Miriam sits up. She can hear Penny perfectly now, as if the volume from the past has suddenly swelled, clear as if her sister is next to her, snorting and hysterical. She can hear Dandy, too, the gross squelching noise—the rasps of tongue, muzzle and teeth.
Squatting in front of them, Penny can barely catch enough breath for one small word, “See?” Penny says, the pitch of her voice high and nasal with allergies.
She pivots toward them, her sneakers making rubbery squeals on the floorboards. The hotdog is gone, wax wrapper crinkling under Penny’s heel. Her palm is still on the screen, but she’s only teasing Dandy now, enjoying the tickle of each desperate lash of his tongue. She looks squarely at her sisters this time, demanding an answer, “See?”
She is eight years old, nothing important has happened to her—her big teeth aren’t even all in yet. Her legs are folded reeds with scabbed kneecaps and her eyes are fierce with this one moment. A bit of hotdog is caught in her bangs and tears of laughter lacquer her freckles.
This is not a memory. Estelle and Miriam see her clearly, hear her perfectly. Penny is laughing the pure kind of laughter that can make her wet her pants. She is helpless with it.
It’s infectious. They can hardly help themselves. Jeweled and mottled hands reach blindly to link as the smooth, small pair slips away.
Sarah Stonich’s novels include These Granite Islands and The Ice Chorus, both published by Little, Brown & Co. “Destination” is from Vacationland, a forthcoming volume of stories connecting a number of characters to the same Northern Minnesota resort. Stonich lives in Minneapolis with her husband, Jon Ware. For more, visit www.sarahstonich.com [11]
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